i really really really dont want to post this because its such a RAHHHH subject-.- and i want my blog to be dead! dead dead dead DIEEE D:

but okay la really no choice already! and i hope you read this because i dont want to talk to you straight so i hope you get the message.

GIVE ME TIME LAH.

i know you wanna make up.
i know you have good intentions and all that shit
but im not ready, okay?

im still hurting.
im still very insecure about talking to you, okay?
after all that bitching-
its very scary

i mean,
i gotta admit la.
im alot less scared of you
and freaked out by you
after the email and stuff

but;

DONT BUG US-.-

im still freaked out by you, okay?

its just very;
RAAAHHH-.-

and dont try to talk to me now about this
dont, dont attempt to clear up stuff.
not now.
give me time-
at least wait until after ndp.
because now i want to concentrate on ndp, okay?
she has ord to worry about too.
we're busy people.


leave us alone for another couple of weeks.


thank you.